A new year... what i wish is a new qiao xiang! because... i feel that 2005 was a year whereby my life was stagnant. I stop growing in terms of height.. i stop growing in knowledge, i stop growing spiritually. WHY? i have no idea. perhaps is because i m too lazy to even upgrade myself. not willing to? i got no hint. but year 2006.. is a new beginning.. i got a new opportunity to start all over again.. a good start.. can i do it? am i willing to do it? a big question mark. so far, i feel that there's no improvement shown yet.. still slacking hard. projects? i do not like it. how i wish that i m not brought dwn by all the projects and meetings. feelin so stress and pressurize..the worst part is that, is not about myself, is a group thingy. if i do not handle my part well.. i will brg the whole group down.. but i haf got no motivation. What's lies ahead? at a crossroad.. not knowing what will happen next... after poly.. what should i do? pursit higher education? can i do it? can i execl? hmmm.. why suddenly i haf got no confident? what happen? i dunno! dont ask me why... dont ask me what happen.. i can still be cheerful and face each day with a big wide smile. that is not a problem.. whenever ppl ask if i am ok and doing well.. i can still reply i m ok with the same expression.. but what lies within? nobody knows.. i dun even know.. if one day, you come and confront me that you as my fren do not know me well.. hmm.. well, i will tell you that i do not know myself well either. So, how can u know me well? also, i am not good at words... therefore, my gratitude towards my frens are not express out.. but truly, i cherish each and everyone of you. Trust me!