Name: qiaoxiang 26 April 26, 2006 5.30pm
As last day of work is approaching (2 more days), my responsibility become lesser & lesser. To simplify, work assigned to me become lesser and I start to slack even more. =P Nevertheless, as days passes, there is a sense of belonging developed deep within.
As I am writing this blog, I am sitting in front of my work desk while my mind starts wandering. I could not blog at my work place as the site is blocked. So, I write down my thoughts in Microsoft word before I start forgetting. Actually, I am trying to skive. LOL! My mind has been very distracted ever since this morning. Stella, Jing Yun & I have been discussing what to buy for everyone this coming Friday as farewell gifts. Initially, we wanted to order pizza delivery as a treat, but coy is ordering catering so that idea got to forego. We decided to go shopping after work today @ marina square to see if we got any discoveries. I guessed thoughts of shopping after work can be quite distracting, or could it be some other factors that draw my attention away? Hmm… I start to wonder.
Well, I surely miss all my colleagues here in PGMI & definitely all the laughter & joy. Suddenly, I realised how lucky we are to be able to work here. Not only the welfare is good, the environment is good too. As you know (if you had constantly read my blog, though it can get quite boring sometime), previously there were a few big events going on. I was given a SIM card by the coy for my phone to stay contactable by my co-workers as well as to save my hp bills. I thought that was all for the reimbursement, but to my surprise, my manager email us today & ask if we prefer Takashimaya voucher or NTUC voucher (of course we choose taka, as NTUC may be more suitable for my mum (aunties). Actually, I should have opt for NTUC so as to give my mum & make her love me more) but too late, I had chose a $10 taka voucher. This added on to my birthday present that was presented by my angels, a total of $40. =) So nice of my coy, am I right? Welfare is good here. Besides, my cab fare to work (can only be claim if work start before 7am) can be claimed. So good right? But the paid here is not that fantastic. However, I don’t really mind because what is important is the people here that make me feel comfortable and looking forward to work each day.
As I start to recite how good my life can be working here, it make feel a little upset and unbearable. Working here helps to change my mentality towards working. All along I loathe working environment that are competitive especially in an all female working environment. I always feel very intimidate despite being a part time or worst full time staff. I hate politics, back-stabbing & gossips. I never understand why people like to talk about other people during their lunch breaks. Why can’t they talk more about themselves? Why one can uses all kind of tricks & means to climb up the corporate ladder? Tell me why? Is that all human beings are concerned of & capable to do? Money, fame, recognition…? Then what about other values & principles? Like love, compassion, integrity, relationship…? Why want to make your life so miserable at work? Therefore, many people started to job hop around to find themselves better position or best, better places to start a new cycle of gossiping and back-stabbing? If this goes on forever, everyone will be ended up with insecurity & start to protect themselves even more. Everyone will start to hold back & become an anti-social like me! =[ that’s really bad. But what can be done? The world started crafting people this way so let it be?
Perhaps one day I can feel more belong to the world as everyone started to be an anti-social or at least act as one. I wonder which planet am I belong to? Never able to find myself fit to the world. Not to the people, not to the culture, not to the anything. LOL! What if one day, I finally decided not to endure all these Sh*t? What if one day, I decide to leave w/o announcing it out loud? Will anyone ever notice it? Will there be anyone who cares?
The World is full of lies. And Life is complicated.
My heart had hardened, my promise had broken.
My heart had hardened, my promise had broken.