I really don’t understand. Human beings are just selfish creatures. Perhaps, no one is perfect and hence selfishness is just one flaw that is found in everyone. I asked myself why am I doing this again? Why do I just keep silent when I feel that it is so wrong for them to repeat the mistake? And, why didn’t people simply learn from it or why would we commit the same old foolish mistakes again. Insensitive? Can I use that word to describe us? Or, perhaps insensitive is too nice a word to depict our action? I simply feel that we are just being self-centered. Why couldn’t we be just a little thoughtful & put ourselves in somebody else’s shoe? Why couldn’t we just stop thinking about what “I” want & what “I” do not want? How many times have we asked, what do “YOU” like or what do “YOU” dislike? Why are we spending so much money & time on such thing and ended up with more disappointments & unhappiness? Does it worth it? Please ask yourself that. Did you truly gain what you want? Why bother so much about other people feelings & enjoyment when they do not even care about you? Why so silly? Stop being so naïve, they simply don’t see your effort nor appreciate it. Guess I am guilty for being insensitive too. NO, I am just guilty for being too selfish. No one is perfect! That’s just an excuse to use as a shield to cover up our ugliness. But please remember that, it may just be a shield to you but a sword to others. A sword that is capable to tear somebody apart even without your realization.

So many emotion ups & downs this week, it just starts my mind thinking. Perhaps, I may appear a little bit retard to others but that is the best way to protect myself as it provides me with a sufficient reason to be indifferent. But, am I feeling regretful for the things I have done & people that I have tolerate? I don’t know, perhaps I may be able to give myself an answer after a period of time. After some tranquility…. Maybe.

PS. 18 more days... You will be missed!