Name: qiaoxiang Dear God,
It is Easter Sunday again. I can still remember vividly on this very same day, 12 years ago. It was a life changing experience for me. I will never forget, never will I. God, I know that I am not fit to call You my Heavenly Father anymore as this was the decision I have made. I can only choose one, You or you. So God, I have chosen the latter. In fact, this was one of the prayers I have made. And I also believed that You had answered my prayer by blessing me what I really want eventually, maybe reluctantly but You still did. God, initially I thought that I could resist all the tests You had placed in my life, even this. But I realised that I can’t. I have to go with my heart, rebelliously. I have decided to take that leap, leap of courage, courage to pursue my happiness.
Thank you, Oh God. For I know that this is Your blessing. I believe it is. I hope it is. I pray that it is. God, I never failed to give thanks for every moment in my life, happy or unhappy. You made me see things clearly and be contented with life. Continue to bless me with a child-like heart, pure and good. God, thank You. I will continue to praise and worship You secretly in my heart. Please forgive me for not able to proclaim Your goodness loudly and openly like many years ago. But please believe that You are still in my heart. I am just feeling ashamed, ashamed to say that I am a believer. Afraid to be judged. I believe that what is important is the heart. Is the heart that matter.
God, thank you once again. For I am happy, really happy with the choice I had made. Hope You will be happy for me too.
The Rebellious One